Because "riots," "rioters" and "rioting" are used so disparagingly, there has not been much reason to press the point but it has been rattling around in my brain for a long time. A conversation today with anthropologist Edgar Rivera Colón helped me articulate my thought that those inchoate moments are speaking an emotional language, asking us to listen with our hearts, not our judgements. I think they convey scream, and we are meant to hear and feel all the terror and impossibility held in that scream. I am writing "scream" in italics to make it a neologism, an emotion word. To me, the word "riot" -- defined as "public violence, disorder or tumult" -- has a core of scream that the word "uprising" does not contain.
As a psychiatrist, that scream is the deep and essential communication and it should neither be denigrated nor prettied up. It is, I realized in the conversation with Edgar, like domestic violence, like the moment when the battered spouse picks up a rolling pin and bashes in the head of the abuser. We are supposed to hear the breaking point in the act, the straw that broke the camel's back, "no worse there is none, pitched past pitch of grief," as the poet wrote.
If we could hear the scream, and hear in it the years of torment, we would understand that the battered spouse and the rioter are acting in self-defense. We would honor the courage of their refusal -- which I think is what Dr. Aptheker was trying to get at -- and we would see from their acts the structural violence that was and is the real danger threatening all of us.
I worked with Hannah Cooper for two years on our book, From Enforcers to Guardians: A Public Health Approach to Ending Police Violence. I read a lot about the kinds of brutality that define policing at its worst. The key analysts of the issue, like Shaun King and Paul Butler, have helped us to see the vast and insidious system of support for this brutality, so extensive that it is nearly impervious to change, and hence the scream.
But we know that this scream at this moment holds much more than the rage at police brutality: the path of the coronavirus has revealed the dense fabric of inequality in a manner we have never seen before, the Grim Reaper striding the paths of social stratification to take the weak, the marginalized, the exposed, while those with wealth and power tweet their derision and deny shelter to the terrified. If this were all going to end in this tenth week of shelter-in-place we might feel some hope, but we see 40 million unemployed, jobs disappearing not to return, and mass evictions and hunger looming on the horizon.
This particular scream has risen from the streets to reach into the hearts of all of us. Maybe ten weeks ago our ears might have been stoppered with the certainty of the next paycheck, but not now. Now we see, now we hear, now we are so hurt. In this moment we both feel the scream and see the system that is hurting all of us. I find, for myself, that it is only in drawing on spiritual resources that I can do both of these tasks. As Chogyam Trungpa said, "Hold the sadness and pain of samsara in your heart and at the same time the power and vision of the Great Eastern Sun. Then the warrior can make a proper cup of tea."
Put another way, in the immortal voice of Odetta, "Another man done gone," a song which is so precise in conveying the pain it has survived decades and crossed cultures, giving us in music an understanding that defies words, yet she holds us to it, helps us face it. In the embracing power of her art, we go deep, which opens time to think.
We need time to absorb these ten weeks of revelation, to digest that we aren't going "back to normal," but to somewhere else, somewhere new. One step forward is to get on the "bus" and go the Poor People's Assembly on June 20th. RSVP now. You can come on the "bus" of 400 Years of Inequality which will board at 9:30am for the 10am rally. You have to bring your own cake, though we will provide recipes. And you have to make your own signs, though there will be lots of models. You could also organize your own "bus" with your friends and relations. We have to be there, in the space of indignation and planning, so that we can move forward together, in a massive moral fusion coalition, towards a new future that reflects what we are FOR.
Mindy,
ReplyDeleteIn the midst of all the rage, existential killing, screaming and pain, I have ben trying to find a calm center from which to work. That center is the place from which the essential and ultimate solution arises. At the same time, contrarily (I thought), I feel compelled with some ferocity to act on the imperative of acknowledging evil and then working with others to defeat the real, life-and-soul killing reality of what we have done and are doing to our brothers and sisters by forgetting that they are our brothers and sisters; that they also need that same whole center of being. That center is a place that costs nothing, means everything and is impossible to arrive at without a fierce commitment to grace and goodness.
The oscillation between my anger and my need to center has been disorienting. Your note has been helpful. I am particularly touched by the both/and admonition that you cite in Chogyam Trungpa saying, "Hold the sadness and pain of samsara in your heart and at the same time the power and vision of the Great Eastern Sun. Then the warrior can make a proper cup of tea."
I thought to look you up for another point of view after notes from two very old friends who are each raging and a conversation yesterday at the hardwaare store with Wayne, a beautiful black man who has every reason to rage but has been an inspiration over the past few years by bearing witness to how a calm, centered, and self-less approach to this life and to others can change almost everything. Thank you for this, Mindy.